Asking for blog suggestions in a meeting at a sex toy company usually doesn't yield diverse topics, as discussing sex tends to be about work rather than personal experiences. The author battles with cultural shame when thinking about proposing explicit topics, despite working for a sex-positive company like Pure Romance.
When a coworker suggests writing anonymously about an embarrassing sexual experience, the author faces the reality that their own sex life doesn't offer anything particularly outrageous to share.
The author's sex life, despite working at a sex toy company, wasn't reflective of the adventurous advice they gave out. It was only after deciding to read more as a New Year's resolution that they stumbled upon Wattpad, a platform for amateur writers, which led to an exploration of erotic stories.
Confessing to reading explicit content on Wattpad is more daunting to the author than talking about their own sex life. The 'mature' tag on these stories serves as both a warning and an invitation for those seeking such material.
The author's journey into smut began as an attempt to read more, pivoting from classic literature to free stories on Wattpad. The platform's recommendations led them to increasingly mature romance stories.
While the author avoids detailing the erotic narratives they indulged in, they note the variety available and how it differed from porn in providing intimacy, chemistry, and a female perspective. This newfound interest in smut translated into a reinvigorated sex life with their partner, with the author initiating more and enjoying better sex.
The author concludes that while there's an aspiration to be seen as erudite, their reality—and now a point of pride—is being absorbed in smut at home, leading to a healthier and more fulfilling sex life.